for goodness sake

for goodness sake please don't any o'how use the term
"commit suicide" to deliver a news about a person who
attempted suicide.

yesterday, my heart sank when a fren called to tell me
another fren commited suicide. i thought to myself
"shit! she died!" my God help me,, how?!?

then i asked: "what happened!?"
then the person explained that she is rushing to the
hospital to check out the status of our fren.

"she's ok?"

"her dad says she's unconscious"

"oh, so she's unconscious?"

"ya. im going there now...how?"

(wa lau, i thought. please dont EVER say that the person committed
suicide when it is ATTEMPTED suicide OK!!!)
becos it is NO joke.

once i had an aunt who committed suicide. she died, yes she died.
so please dont call me on the phone to tell me who and who
committed suicide becos it is a very very difficult piece of news to
digest.

*sigh*
the only thing that can drive a person to suicide is perhaps
the delusion of love lost. i dunno,, dont ask me. i really dont
know where their courage comes from. to die.

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ok ok it's christmas and i should be cheery.
i've got lots of parties to go to. many house parties. yes.
dressing up and all that glitters is all gold. hahaha.

k, im feeling rather down actually. cos im rather in debt.
and i feel pathetic when i cant spend $$. and i feel pathetic
when i do spend money. either way, i am pathetic.
so.... how.